Monday, September 21, 2009

I Don't Believe My Conscience Will Ever Be Clear Again

I've been blocking it all out lately. I don't want to process or analyze or even remember.
Today I just wanted to be alone with my thoughts, to figure out what they were. I was selfish. So was he. I screamed to get my way. He screamed back. I was crying. He was indifferent.
I picked up the nearest thing I could and threw it hard. It hit him.
Maybe my wall finally shattered. I don't know what to do with all this glass. I can't remember ever being so embarrassed.
I'm sorry. This is an apology to him, as well as myself.

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